Rants

It's been a long time since I blogged. And I really need an avenue to rant at this moment.
Its 4am, and I'm wide awake.

I've just had my first thought provoking conversation in months, and I can't help but question myself.
What have I been doing the past months?

I seemed to have lost all motivation, all senses.
The days and assignments are just seem to be random strangers in my life.
How did I allow it to happen?

And I just can't help but wonder where the road ahead takes me.
Literally.

All my life, the road ahead always seems to have an opportunity which I would grab hold of, and advance.
I didn't have to worry about PSLE because I was affliated to the secondary school. I have never dreamt of studying anywhere else other than SNGS.
I didn't have to worry about O Levels because I will most certainly be accepted into Victoria Junior College through appeal, using badminton.
I didn't have to worry about A Levels because I was accepted into UNSW Asia even before I took my examinations.

Every step of the way, I had a helping hand or a special skill of mine which would take me places.
I look back at my tertiary education, and I know I've matured. And I certainly have leadership capabilities. But I also have the tendency to run away from challenges and problems. I might be graduating without any internship on my records. I might be just a nobody. And the thought of it scares me.

I have no idea what doors of opportunity lies ahead of me, but I certainly hope that there is one, and that I will grab hold of it tightly.

S